You're gone, shit, you
left a long time ago
but the cigarette smoke won't
come out the cloths you'd out grown before you skipped town
and left me home alone
with your posters on wall
and that bottle of cologne
meed in the mug
and that shattered house phone
you didn't take much
so the time it took was long
to piece together that you're gone
a lot of staring at the lawn
covered in dead leafs
born from lifeless
silent trees
but how they scream
in the slightest breeze
waiting for the squeak of
your near dead breaks and your headlights to pour in
and drown out the darkness
life's been hard since
you up jumped ship
but I can't blame you
I don't even really know if
you were able to swim
maintain your head above the
water you stepped in
but you left me here
with a whole lot of goblins
and no escape path
no way to stop them
but my heart lives it
fosters a flame
what it cost is to blame
for what it caused and became
a closet of fame
with a monsters name
and what I chalked up to gain just don't compare to
what I lost to decay
that day, that day(x2)
(Repeat “movin on” through sample every 1st beat)
moving on up
if I can't hold it down
MY shoulders are to blame
got a name to maintain
and I can't stay in your shadow
when it ceased to exist
got my own life to live
and a pair of lips to spit
look I got a fist
and a mic and it fits
look I got a closet
filled with egg crates and gifts unwrapped ready to give
to these under exposed kids
who aren't ready to hear this
passion from pure bliss
I don't even want the money
fuck the cheddar
fuck the cheese
i've been stacking tracks
since I was thirteen
steady honing a flow
that on it's own could be the beat and you can freely see that
in the A Capella’s that I bleed
you watched me grow, then
I watched you leave
you don't stop to say hello
but my fingers keep the peace
cause you'll be back I know, this I don't just believe (x2)
(repeat “i've grown” through 2nd part of sample every 1st beat)
(starts at end samples line) i've grown from a poem
to a distinctly broken stolen omen
coped with the open
ly hopeless closed in
choices chosen
for they're backwards motion like what you dove in

and the water looked great, how could I not leap and taste it
lips of new haven
on a Livestrong bracelet
break it, face it
I don't need to embrace it physically to make it
a reality safely
I remember faintly
things you would say to me between stopping in
then leaving again
never helping with the ghosts that were creeping in announcing when here
with nails on the door
like they had my fear
but they wanted more
found the power of a pen after drawing on my desk and i'll never forget
the strength it came with
like I couldn't cave in
so pen strokes in the dark wrote them off
that made me strong
maybe that's what you wanted for me all along
so thank you all
is what I meant to say
when I wrote this song (repeat as outro)
Shiki No Uta - Audiodoctor